11:59PM,
But where are you?
Said you’d be out an hour,
And yet now it’s been six.
Sworn he was just a friend,
But of course I know.
Deluding myself,
Because you don’t care enough to make excuses.
Perhaps I’m holding onto that shred of hope,
The light that used to gleam in your eyes.
The light you had when you looked at me,
How you now look at him.
This is an unhealthy game,
I’m playing against myself.
Falling deeper into despair,
Perhaps it’s become a comforting feeling.
Maybe I’ll gather the courage though,
If you hold my hand one last time.
Show me that feeling,
Of your ice cold hand.
As cold as your heart,
As frozen as our once passionate blaze.
If the frost doesn’t kill me,
That stone hard gaze of yours surely will.
Although perhaps I’ve grown to like it,
The way you treat me.
Even if I haven’t,
I’m not sure I could live without it anymore.
So if you don’t mind,
Let me hold onto you.
Reliving the warm memories we once shared,
Living through the pain of your indifferent touch.
Perhaps your presence is enough,
To bring meaning to my life.
Even when you couldn’t care less for that,
Couldn’t care less for me.
So look at me,
Please, before I do something I shouldn’t.
Delude me, how I delude myself,
It’s not easy on my own.
Make me feel like we’re in this together,
One last time.